if we go back to the beginning of the year, we will find me saying that 2011 is gonna be my year.

now that the year is about to end, i can say that it was my year.

i can’t say that anything absolutely amazing happened, except that i met amazing people in another city 8 hours away from home, and that i found a legitimate second home. or that my best friend and i celebrated 11 years of friendship with a trip to vancouver. or that i held my favourite backstreet boy’s hand. or that my childhood dream came true of finally having my own puppy.

besides all that, to name a few. 2011 was my year because i found peace in my solitude. i found myself happy, to just be with myself. i found myself remaining positive, and appreciating the smaller things which made me love the bigger picture. i grew up but remembered to stay my age.

i may have been thrown off track a couple times, been knocked over a few more times, but i always found a way back to my feet, more determined. i figured myself out, to lose myself all over again. i fell out of routine, of what was easy.. eager to find love, but patient enough to know it will come when least expected.

i found myself in kelowna numerous times in the summer. what i expected to be a couple time thing, ended up being a second home. i fell in love with the drift scene. i found best friends in my brother & shaylee.

i feel like so many things were thrown at me to test my patience and maturity. and i feel like i passed those tests with flying colours. if there’s one thing i still stand by it’s the fact that we’re not in high school anymore, there is no need for bullshit and drama. if you have a problem, speak out.

there were so many beautiful moments of 2011. so much growing in the past year. so many that i’ll always remember. so many that i’m proud to share.

to 2011 being a year of growth, maturity, and happiness. 2012, bringing more to the table than this past year. and to so many more years with my family, best friend, true few, kelowna fams and brix.

1love.

7 days until penticton, 19 days til mom gets home, 35 days til vancouver, 36 days til nkotbsb

spent on the couch with season 1 and 2 of brothers & sisters. tomorrow marks my monday to the work week, but just can’t stop watching.

“See the way I look at it, I have the boys.. that’s 6 loves of my life, my forever & always.. who I don’t see or talk to often but when it comes down to it… he’s there; we’re always gonna be there, then there’s you who’s pretty much my soul mate, and my family.. and they’re number 1 always.. so really, there’s no room in my heart for bullshit. This talk of being lonely and not having a boyfriend means nothing because my heart is full, my life is full of love from people who have been there from day 1. When the times right, someone will be there… bullshit & all and I’ll be good with letting them in… but for now, I’m good.”

+++ always have & always will be bata, family being best friends, best friends being family, seeing my cousins & goddaughter growing into such beautiful & bright people, emails from distant friends, having my me time on a daily basis, my boys & the few girls, tv series collection, loving my job, being able to stay positive during rough times, down days, haagen-dazs coffee icecream & laura secord’s superkid icecream, my blackberry, online shopping, my longtime best friend; pochacco, my mylkeeee, my little shivic, when my goddaughter is loving, good food & good company, driving around aimlessly, heart to hearts, serenity prayer, unconditional love, coming home to new videos, @iharryshum, @VictorQuest, @josephvincent12, @hokutokonishi, @ryanimay, @d_Trix, @BrianQuest, @Traphik, tuesday breaks, the knowledge i now have from the last year and a half of school, sunday lunches with the family, shopping, vancouver, the way i wish my life would end up, my little day dreams, reading, being a hopeless romantic, my bed, my bipolar ipod, photography, boys that sing, people with passion, goofiness, people that understand my attitude, my cameras, dunkaroos, my sait sweatpants, my browns sweater, motivation, staying busy, good quotes, agreeing with horoscope facts, smile, annnnd everything in betweeeen.. but mostly.

..the happiness that i have found.